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January 2018


reading list 2018


New Year, new goals right? Well, my ultimate goal for this year is finishing all the unread books I have on my shelf.

I have this thing for browsing through a good bookstore, getting lost between the shelves and look for interesting stories that amazon would never suggest for me.

Throughout the year I will keep you updated and include reviews of the books I read. So here we go – down that rabbit hole of unread books:

How Not to Die – Dr. Michael Greger: Being a new vegan, this was the number one book on my list. Even though I have others on my nightstand already, I immediately started reading it when I bought it. I am not at all finished with it yet and there will be a review coming soon, but I can already tell: It blows my mind!

The Future – Al Gore: I think I picked this book up more than a dozen times but never made it to the last page. It is one of the few books that lie on my nightstand, just in case I feel like reading one night – which did not happen yet since I mostly read during my commute. I am a fan of Al Gore since I saw An Inconvenient Truth. When I saw this book in the store I simply had to have it. From the first pages, I read so far I can say: It is ambitious and overwhelming sometimes, but hell it is interesting.

But What If We’re Wrong – Chuck Klosterman: This book fell into my lap after browsing Barnes & Noble for hours during my New York trip last year. We always assume that the way we think today is the right way. But what if that is not true? In the past, we were proven wrong multiple of times.

The Unwinding – George Packer: I bought this book way before Donald Trump announced his candidacy for president. But even before then I was hooked on how the US has developed over the years and how much has changed. While researching this on the internet, this book came up. I am really looking forward reading it, especially with all what is happening right now.

Stieg Larsson Trilogy: This has been on my shelf for longer than I’d like to admit. I saw the movies and I saw the American adaption of it as well. After watching the movies I had no intentions of reading the book as well. But one day I found all three copies at the flea market and thought: why not?

Not That Kind Of Girl – Lena Dunham: I am probably super late with this since this book was trending in 2016 I think? Since then it is sitting on my shelf, waiting to be read. Even though my interest in girly books has slightly worn off over the past year I am trying to give this a go.

Stoner – John Williams: While browsing amazon for classic novels that you simply have to read, this one came up. I have to admit, I never heard of John Williams before. But the back cover described in such a great way, that I put it on my reading list. We will see if it holds up to its description.

Hegemony Or Survival – Noam Chomsky: Another book that came up during my research about the US. Noam Chomsky is a classic when it comes to critical thinking. I only saw the documentary Requiem for the American Dream, so I am looking forward reading something of him instead.

What She Left – T. R. Richmond: Pursuing journalism for many years a thriller about a young female journalist has me hooked immediately. What She Left is about a young girl in college, writing for the crime column of a local newspaper and suffering a mysterious death. The book is written in different styles each chapter, such as blog entries, letters or phone texts. This is so unique, that the book made my list immediately.

We Were Liars – E. Lockhart: There is not much about this book on the cover. It does not really say what it is about, it only says it is a mystery of a young girl and her family. All the reviews printed on that book made it so interesting, that it ended up on the big pile of books on my shelf.

Gotham Writers’ Workshop Writing Fiction: Writing for me is therapeutic and helps me visualize my thoughts. For a very long time now I have several stories in my head that are just sitting there in a word document on my computer. Since English is not my first language I thought a little bit of research on creative writing in English would be good. Maybe it will motivate me to finally finish at least one of the stories.

The China Study – T. Colin Campbell and Thomas M. Campbell: While doing my research about veganism there is one study that probably is cited the most and is criticised the most at the same time: the china study. After reading so many contradicting reviews about it, I had to get to be able to form my own opinion about it.

1984 – George Orwell: Another classic that does not need a lot of describing I guess. I have to admit, it is kind of embarrassing that I’ve never read this book so far. But this will be changed this year.

The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a Fuck – Sarah Knight: Another book I am probably way behind with. After the famous tidying book by Marie Kondo, this was another one that entered center stage of the books you simply have to read if you want to be cool. Trying to be cool I bought it, but haven’t had the time to read it yet.

Thank you for reading.





how I learned how to let go


As a kid, I loved every thing out there. I always wanted the newest toy. But when I had what I wanted, I immediately wanted something else. Because at the end, it seemed to be that every other kid had more and better things.

I also never was good at leaving stuff behind. I never really thought about getting rid of anything. I loved all my cars, all my stuffed animals, all my toys for the sandbox and all of my Playmobil figurines. When you are asking yourself where the dolls and Barbies are…well I had one Barbie, I shaved her head and was bored. You could say I was a tomboy back then. But back to topic: I loved everything I owned and never had the intention of decluttering or even having the slight idea of what decluttering was. My mother went crazy with all the stuff lying around and once every week she said she would throw everything out that was lying on the floor if I wouldn’t tidy up my room. Scared as hell that I might lose even one of my beloved toys I tidied up my room. Apparently, parenting worked well for my mother with this line.

Growing older my interests shifted from toys to makeup and clothes. But also there, I was a little bit of a hoarder. I kept everything because you “might like it at some point”. Well, I didn’t. Even after moving out I kept everything. Boxes full of clothes and makeup were moved to another city onto the 3rd floor and into my tiny room. I believe this was the first time I thought about getting rid of stuff. Not because I really wanted to, but moving 20 boxes full of clothes onto the 3rd floor was not a spa treatment.

Trends will break your bank account

I actually have no idea why I thought this way so early in life and carried it with me into adulthood. But I am pretty sure, that our consumer-society is mostly at fault for this. Back in the day (like back in the day of my grandmother’s life), you would purchase something and would keep it as long as it still works. Even if it stops working, you would’ve tried to repair it. Nowadays you buy something just because it looks pretty or it is on trend right now – the definition of consumerism. No one cares about the quality anymore.

New trends were my bank accounts death sentence every time. A new clothing trend that looked appealing to me, I would go into the city and purchase something. After a few months, it would lie in my closet and would never be touched again. I always felt the need to change that, but it wasn’t until I had to live off a few things for a long period, that I actually did change this kind of behavior.

Living in Sweden taught me how to let go

For me, it all began in Sweden. As part of my studies, I had the opportunity to go abroad for a semester. I’ve always wanted to go to Sweden, I don’t know exactly why, maybe because my mom and I used to go to IKEA all the time. I had no idea this semester would have such a long-term effect on me and my way of thinking.

I lived in Stockholm for about five months in a tiny single dorm room. Luckily I had my own bathroom, fridge, and one hot plate. Space was minimal, basic furniture, no decor. Even though I traveled by car and was able to bring more stuff than those who arrived by plane, I lived off two bags of clothes and one of kitchen items. The only thing I purchased in Sweden was a frying pan, nothing else.

It was not just the fact that I was able to live off those few things that made me rethink my consumer behavior and my way of accumulating stuff that I never used and did not even like. These five months were one of the happiest in my life. I felt free, relaxed and grounded. The pressure I used to feel was gone. I did not feel the need to be busy all the time, to get stuff done, even though my heart and head weren’t in it. Without this pressure, wherever it came from, I was able to be even more productive. I enjoyed being productive, it didn’t feel like it was forced.

This feeling was what I took with me on my way home. I wanted to maintain this drive, this level of being productive and still being relaxed and happy. Back home it took me a while to tackle this matter. Coming back after five months means a lot of paperwork, adult stuff to deal with. I had a pile of mail in front of me that needed to be looked at, the heating needed to be fixed and so on…

After settling in for about four months and getting the affairs of my return back in order I started my minimalism journey. At that point, I didn’t read about minimalism at all. I didn’t even know that minimalism was what I was pursuing. I just started with decluttering my wardrobe. A thing I do every year because it makes me feel good. But that year I was more strict than ever and threw away all the stuff I didn’t like, that made me feel uncomfortable or that I never wore anyway. With being more strict, I was able to downsize my wardrobe by half. But decluttering my wardrobe was just the beginning. Little did I know what I had started with this.

A few months after downsizing my wardrobe I realized that I still wasn’t wearing a lot of the clothes. I decided I would look into a video by The Anna Edit that I watched months back. She talked about a thing called „The Capsule Wardrobe“. It basically means that you divide your clothes into seasons and that you will live with a certain number of clothes for three months, without going shopping during that time.

Watching this video for the first time I immediately thought: „This sounds interesting, but that would never work for me.“ But deep inside I wished it would work for me. It sounded like it would be fun, less stressful in the morning to pick the right outfit. And let’s be honest, I am a sucker for trends like this.

Minimalism does not mean everything should be white

After rewatching the video and reading into the topic the term minimalism popped up a lot. I started researching about it and could relate to it more than I would’ve thought. I actually think of me as a person that likes to accumulate stuff. I like a shelf full of books, decor, and cozy rooms. I don’t like rooms that are empty and all white. Yes, those look better on Instagram, but I couldn’t imagine living in a room without any life in it. That is, why I was reluctant to call myself a minimalist at first.

When you google the term minimalism, you mostly will find white rooms, without any or just one picture on the wall, pretty instagramable furniture and a few pretty plants in the corner. The fact, that every blog had that kind of aesthetic and was pursuing this goal threw me off the minimalism journey a lot. It took me a long time to get over the fact that minimalism has different looks and that everyone needs to do it their own way. It is not a strict lifestyle that forces you to love with as little as possible and have the most instagramable room out there. At the end, it is about living a purposeful life and enjoying the simplicity of it all.

Stay tuned for more stories and thoughts on minimalism and how I incorporate it into my life.

Thank you for reading.